In the last post we did a visual training exercise to simply feel freedom to create. There’s something about adulthood and our current culture which stifles the very thing we were born to do… create. Fear of what others think, most often tops the list of what holds us back from following creative pursuits. Of course other key factors such as budgets and time allowances also influence our ability to give in to moments of creating. But what I have observed in most people held back from creatively pushing towards the goals they would do if there were no limits, is an unfortunate fear, which can, with proper heart training, be pushed aside.
So a challenge for today… write your goals. The goals that you dream of in your wildest imagination. The places that your freedom of creativity would take you to, in a life without limits and cultural standards. When I did this for the first time, I was brought to tears as I wrote the list, realizing that I was actually afraid to admit my dreams, and that writing them on paper only created one more area of life that I could fail. I have recognized this fear of failure in myself, stemming from having actually failed at so much in life. I have also succeeded in many ways, although the areas of success do not erase the mistakes of the past. So what I needed to do, was give myself permission to write out my dream goal list, even if I were to fail at pursuing them. I was also a bit curious to see what was on that finished list.
When I allowed myself this freedom, I was pleasantly surprised with what was on my list. And since creating my list, my focus for how I spend my time in the present, is directed towards doing anything productive which can bring me to those big dream goals.
What you may be surprised to find, as I was, is that our “dream goals” most often are achievable on some level. For instance, one of the items on my dream goal list, was to one day have a beautiful garden with fruits, vegetables, flowers, and Scripture signs. I want to someday create an outdoor haven that heals the soul. A surrounding of nature’s beauty, along with chosen messages from God’s Word, blending together for an atmosphere of peace and restoration for the heart. The interesting thing is that even though I knew this vision existed in my heart’s desires, I hadn’t considered it being a goal to work towards, until writing it down.
When we write it down, we take the first step to transform the dream, into a reality.
With my vision being clear, I realized that if I want to achieve that goal of a future garden, there are things which I can begin doing now, to lead me into the dream. If we take A STEP, ANY STEP towards the dream, even though that one step is microscopic compared to the big picture goal, we are getting there. But to take no steps at all, we will never arrive. My first step towards the dream garden, was to start with what I had. It could have been 2 potted plants in a window sill, or for me this year, one small vegetable garden in my backyard, with a sheer purpose of learning through the experience.
I didn’t know what I was doing. I have never had any garden at all! My garden began as a compost complete with animal bones, but I cleaned it out, dug in the dirt, breathed in fresh air, and planted seeds. And although the garden hasn’t been watered since July due to it sliding down the totem pole of priorities, and a lot of it is now brown and dying, I now know that raspberries, blueberries, grapes, pumpkins, tomatoes, carrots, peppers, and… a mystery plant that is buried in all of that somewhere… cannot fit together in a 7 x 10 feet area. 😀
But my “failed” garden still brings me 3-4 tomatoes a day, which I love, and the decorative fall pumpkins will not have to be purchased… another victory. Even a small amount of “fruit” produced from our efforts, is in fact productive. Most importantly, I learned that I can do it. Although this was on a very small scale, and is nothing compared to my big picture, the goal for this year was accomplished. I learned from it, and I will use what I have learned to apply to the next step.
Allow yourself the freedom to be creative, imagine without limitations, and write your biggest and most beautiful dreams and desires. You just may discover that the big picture can be accomplished one small step at a time.